Blackgirl

Welcome everyone back to my first love, my blog and poetry. Words cannot be said about why I stopped but i'm back and it feels like heaven. It's funny how I see more of myself clearly during a pandemic, maybe it's because there's nowhere to run or hide this time and you have to face your demons head on. This pandemic is causing a lot of us to question ourselves and what we thought we knew but we'll be alright. Also I hope we are all safe and socially distancing and finding happiness in various little ways. So, here is a short piece I wrote a few days ago. Dear Ori, Do not ever let me dine with vultures  And eat meals that make me fat with silence Let me never eat that which will gag me And cover my eyes in times when evil deeds are done Let hunger never let me scrounge for food at the devil's table Or feed off his crumbs to live Let them never hold my life in shackles in exchange for help May I never let the sn...

Admitting weaknesses, hurt, pain and taking time to seek the origin is one of the most challenging things to do. Almost everyone is dealing with some form of hurt or pain usually linked to something, or what someone did or said in the past, and usually things we ignored or considered inconsequential. At other times it might even be guilt from what we did ourselves. Low self-esteem, body image issues, daddy issues, trust issues almost always stem from a word or action(s) of a person said or done to us.When we acknowledge our hurt,trace it and work on addressing the root cause(s) of why we feel and act the way we do then we can be on the road to finding healing and  inner peace. For me socializing was a really serious issue, serious as in I’m socially awkward and it never used to be that way but taking a step back to self analyse really made the me understand the cause. Somewhere along the journey in my teenage life, something had occurred that had changed me and cause...