Blackgirl

For those who go through dark days they can't share or explain, my heart is with you. They ask ''how are you?" you smile your heart beats loudly like the talking drum your hands shakes a little because how do you say ''I'm dying slowly  my days are filled with emptiness, sadness and months with lows I struggle to breathe sometimes my chest tightens too and i think it might never end" How do you explain that your life is whirring past and you are barely hanging on that you feel emotions you can't explain and thoughts you shouldn't have that your mind is numb and your heart distant  Like you are walking alone in the forest at night afraid, heart palpitating no light in sight your voice echoing back Uneasy because monsters lurk That running leads to dead ends so you stay lost and wandering in this place of nowhere But instead you bolt your feelings in Smile and say  i'm fine and...

  I have written of tales  Of sadness and despair Of pain and suffering Of light and love and joy And dancing And lustful passion but never Have I written of what it’s like To be broken by the ones you trust and love And who you’d hope would fight for you Whose arms you thought would give warmth and solace  And would shield from hurt The ones they say stick closer than brothers Nobody ever speaks of the shattering of heart, mind and soul And every shard of being, minced When they stick that spear in  And grace your heart with pepper The levels of pain inexplicable As gone is both friend and trust You open, vulnerable, splayed like A lab rat for all to infer Because you gave your heart to that one person